Socialista?

Going home from work, me and my carpool buddies where talking about the kind of music we like, i pulled out my old cd and played my music... DMB... ahhh , the good old days. Sang with my music all the way home.

I got here and got a chance to go online, checked mysfaceter.com and saw all my friends posting new pictures of parties and travels they've had and gone to. I suddenly realized all I ever post nowadays are pictures of my son. I'm not saying that's a bad thing. I love my son to death, but I did feel a sting... and I stopped.

Blank face. Sad face. Thinking face. Sad face again. Worried face. Then sad face again.

Realization.

Where did my social life go? What happened to me? Have I been working too hard? Does my marraige have anything to do with this? Motherhood perhaps? I thought again and scanned facebook... I had married and friends with children... they had interesting posts. Then why? What and how did this happen?

Times like this I miss being single. Only because I remember the things I was able to do then, places I could have gone to but didn't. I should have traveled more. I should have gone out more. Attend more parties, events. I should let myself go do some of those things again.

I wonder if I can? My husbands like staying home and I sometimes do too. But there are times when I just wanna go out and have fun; alcohol not a requirement but is ofcourse welcome. I just like the company of my friends and aquintances, hang out talk about common interest, plan events, attend cos plays but mostly just hang. I don't have that... anymore.

My space is very limited to work and home. I wake up, go to work, go home, sleep then go to work again. Routinary, monotonous, boring.

I used to just go. Go where i'm needed, go where they go. Just go, you know?

I guess responsibility does this to you. I wonder when I grew up? I miss being young and wreckless, unpredictable, spontaneous...

I'm gonna be thinking about this today.

A few stolen moments...

Ok here's the deal.

I DO NOT HAVE INTERNET!

I have been living my life without internet and who would have thought it can be done... but here I am surviving... nabubuhay sa mga nakaw na sandali. It all started when I got myself into my relationship with my husband. When we started dating my affair with my pc died.

I miss the internet. I'll be moving back to my parents house, more like taking over actually. But that's a whole different story that I will be telling you about soon. Notice the word SOON. First thing I'm gonna be doing is to hook me up with internet.

I have been keeping tab of things, significant and not so significant details of my life its either written down in paper or saved in my pc. I'll be posting them here soon. I know no one really reads my blog, but that's fine. This is for my own pleasure and sanity. I miss writing... I miss reading.... Growing up, being responsible not so good for the artist in me.

I am keeping it alive though. I wanna keep my creative juices flowing. I'm never great at anything in particular, I don't think, but I can settle for good at somethings. Jack of some traits and a master of none. hehe...

Listen to me babble and ramble on just about anything that goes thru my head. I just wanna keep you posted I guess. I'd like to type some more but I don't have a lot of time. We're just visiting and it so happens no one is using the computer and so here I am hoping I could write a decent enough entry to post.

Here are just a few things to look forward to:

• My son's birthday
• My new job (not so new anymore)
• My thoughts on the twilight series
• My violent reaction to the shopaholic movie adaptation
• Things I'd like to teach my son.
• How much I adore Jason Castro
• The commoners
• Few things I miss.
• Update on my dear dear friends.
• Things I can't say out loud
• My Son again.
• What I love and hate about the new me (yes, there is a new me)
• Being a wife
• Being a mother
• How many "kasambahay" I've had
• The take over.
  

to sum it up syempre the good times and the bad times.

I can't to post it all here. Sana March na! Maybe people will start reading my blog if I write more and post more... who knows I might even learn how to put adds and stuff, and actually earn some money from my writing.

I'm gonna stop here now, but i'll be back.

I can't wait for March...

Marcus Gets His First Haircut!

This is Marcus on his very first haircut... he is soooo small. i wasn't ready to say good bye to his Ely Buendia hair... but his party was coming up and so we had to...

Just watch him, not a care in the world. he didn't cry even though the kids around him were crying like there's no tomorrow! hehe... I'm so proud of my baby!

Baby Marcus signing his bday invites.

This is Marcus, just a few weeks before he turned one. He is adorable! We made his invites with colored paper and crayons, then we made him sign the invites with his hands and wateer based poster paint...

I think maybe he enjoyed it a little.

tunay at wagas

Para sa mga mahal kong kaibigan, mga kasama ko sa mahigit ng isang dekada, nais kong malaman nyong kayo ay bahagi na ng aking buhay. Wala na akong mahihiling pa mula sa inyo, kung hindi ang patuloy ninyong pagkalinga sa ating pagsasamahan. Sa simula pa lang ng ating pagkakakilanlan ay mabilis na umusbong ang magandang samahan. Simula noon hanggang ngayon, walang bahid, walang sawa at walang pagaatubili... Habang tumatagal, lalong tumitibay. Magbago man ang panahon laging pagkatandaan ako ay nandirito pa rin at batid kong kayo rin. Nagsimula noong tayo ay nasa mataas na paaralan pa lamang ikatlong baytang, ngayon may mga pamilya ng sarili, nag tratrabaho na, may nangibang bansa, bumalik at meron pang babalik pa lang. Ako ay galak na galak at alam ko na kahit hindi tayo nagkikita araw-araw o nag uusap sa sandaling may mangailangan, may kasiyahan o may salu-salo nabubuo tayo at tila walang panahong lumipas, nariyan para sa isa't isa.

Mahal na mahal ko kayo! Mabuhay kayo!

super friends

It's Marcus' birthday today... He is 7 months old. My friends at work came by to visit me and him. I didn't go to work today, and I guess they just miss me. I was Sick. Sooo sweet they got me a rose and a cake. All the way from Makati!!! I'm very lucky to have them as friends. I don't have a very many. I've had the pleasure of being their friend for just about a little over a month, and yet the sincere connection is undeniable.

To Zu Nart, Tam Tam, Master Pogi and Lobert:

What you did for me today, will forever be remembered
as one of the sweetest things ever done for me!

How long is too long?

Okay, okay, so it's been more than a year since my last post... so what? It's not like anyone reads my blog. I don't write anything interesting, hmm... unless your interest is me... unlikely...

Still, i'll post the major things that has happend to me the last year, after getting married. Enjoy!

pogi is in the eye of the beholder

Marcus is growing up fast! on his fifth month he started crawling, sitting and standing!!! He looks so different now. The other day we were browsing his old photos, and saw how different he looked then. I thought he's more pogi now.

Natakot ako! Kase noon pa lang poging pogi na ako sa kanya, na pag may nakikita akong ibang baby, nasasabi ko agad "sus, walang binatbat sa anak ko yan ah!" Naku! Nanay na nanay ang dating na parang ngayon kelangan ko ng confirmation. Pogi ba talaga siya? O nanay lang nya ako kaya pag nakikita ko sya alam kong wala ng mas popogi pa sa kanya!

Bigla kong na-alala ang mga jokes at mga hirit na "a face that only a mother could love", ang mga salitang "pogi daw ako sabi ng nanay ko!". OH MY GOODNESS! Hindi naman siguro!

Gayun pa man, now I feel the need for a confirmation from an objective pa
rty! Nananawagan po ako! Kung mapadaan kayo sa blog ko ng hindi nyo sinasadya. Kung hindi nyo ako kilala, o kahit kilala nyo ako. Paki confirm lang at ng mapanatag ang kalooban ko! hehe... paki sagot lang po ang aking simpleng tanong: pogi baby ko noh?

Sa pag leave ng comment always remember HONESTY IS THE BEST POLICY!

Nevertheless I love him the same way, at kahit na iba ang sabihin nyo ok lang naman. Gusto ko lang naman malaman ang opinion nyo at malaman ko din if I am one those mothers who can see the light in the midst of darkness! hehehe...

Salamat po!

the Marcuses

The moment I saw my baby in the delivery room,
all I can think of is, it's all worth it.
He's so beautiful. He is so perfect. All I ever wanted and more!

So this is how it is being a mom. It is so true what they say that all the pain and discomfort of pregnancy and giving birth is all worth it when your baby gets born. Cuscus is ultra funny, obviously I can't stop with just a few pictures to show his different faces, ending up with 2 collages. Now it's too small to see the really funny ones, so click on the pictures for a better view, I promise it will put a smile on your face.

Now that he's here I sometimes miss him moving around in my tummy, but I would never trade his smiles, hugs and almost kisses for anything!

express yourself

This is Marcus, my angel! He's so funny and has soooo many funny facial expressions. I can't help being a proud MOMMA! Here he is and his many faces on his first month! Still can't get over the fact that I am already a mom. This was at the top of my list... being a mom, now the challenge has begun... what kind of mom will I be? I wonder if I'm any good? I want to be the best, but I'm a long way from knowing...

What I do know now is, I have the bestest, cutest, sweetest and happiest baby in the world!

Welcome home son! Know that mommy loves you even before you were born!

You are my dream come true! I love you!

two weeks ever after

Ahh.. the fairytale life... The day after I got married, i got separated from my husband. I went on a trip with my Family and He stayed with his. His borther lives in the US and so does my sister. They ofcourse came to Pinas to attend our wedding, so we both want to spend time with them. Its been 6 years since any of us got to spend time together as a whole family. Something new right? so we had a very short honeymoon! Just that night after the wedding. hahaha...

This is not a sad story, don't worry because it has a happy ending.

... Two weeks after it was finally happily ever after ...

for better or for worse...

All these years, I have dreamed of being with THE ONE! And now here I am, finally a MISSIS!

Who would have thought I was the marrying kind?

The Creation

Funny story... Ryan and I moved in together Dec. 16, 2006 and after unpacking most of our stuff and had finally rested a little bit, we decided to celebrate our new home... if you know what I mean... *wink*wink* that was about Dec 20. So there we were, getting it on (he he) and then we decided it was 3 months before our wedding and we've decided we we're both ready to be parents. We thought we'd start practicing. Everyone knows that practice makes perfect. That same day an angel was conceived!


Pregnant at 26? When I was planning my life way back in High School, I said I'd get married at 27 and have start my own family at 29. 2 years to enjoy my husband and then the rest of my life with him and my children. Then it happened... the bestest thing that ever happened to me!!! I love it!!!

flavored talong...

Yesterday, I hosted Ling's Bridal Shower! It was awesome. The preparations were a bit harsh, considering my toxic schedule... but it was worth it! I had soooo much fun during and after... before not so much... hehe.

It was not as fun as it could have been, since I didn't have Joef with me to plan and execute the whole thing. I've always had him with me when we host parties... WE MISS YOU JOEF!!! COME HOME TO US! But it was a success, they had fun, i had fun!

To Ling and EJ, two of my bestest friends in the whole wide world! Good Luck, best wishes and love you both! *muah*muah*

older and bolder...

Another year older... can't say i'm wiser, but definitely bolder.

I am 26.

Old enough for everything... ready for anything...

What's next?

keep off the glass.

i am a heartbreaker... i break people's hearts. not just anyone... i break those hearts that feel for me the most... everything i touch turns to glass... and break...

In the begining...

I always wanted to create a blog. Here it is finally. What the hell am I going to do now?